Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Two Steps Forward One Step Back

Cate: Cate, callng Goldilocks, come in, please, over

Goldilocks: Goldilocks here, Cate, I read you. Go ahead over

Cate: Wanted to share a great gain that I had yesterday plus a couple of minor loses but since I know you're a "good-news-first" man yourself I'll start with the positive.

Goldilocks (tongue in cheek) Okay, I'm positve that's a great way to start.

Cate: Thanks, anyway usually, right after lunch I have trouble staying awake. I have actually fallen asleep on a call but that's another story. Anyway, I love Ken's releasing technique where he welcome's the feeling, allows it to be there, accept's it, embraces it, love's it and says "yes" to it. I tried it and I was amazed at how quickly that sleepy feeling left. I mean it was instantaneous.

Goldilocks: Great job, Cate. You really are moving up since we first started corresponding almost a year ago.

Cate: Maybe, but now let me tell you about my tomato plants. I purchased two that were fairly far along in their growth cycle, blooms and everything. One, I put in my upside down tomato planter and the other I planted in our big urn on our deck because with all the rain we had in June we couldn't plow or prepare the garden. The upside down plant was doing fabulously well until I tried moving it to a more sunny spot in the yard. We were going to hang it from the old storage shed by the garden but the hanger was not strong enough for the weight of the planter. (It weighed close to 40 or 50 pounds with all the dirt) Hardly had we started to walk away from it's new location when CRASH! The bolt broke and it fell three of four feet to the ground. The weight of the planter crushed the poor plant, breaking it in three places. I was heart sick to lose it so quickly.

Goldilocks: (empathetically) I'm sorry, Cate.

Cate: (sigh) so was I but I turned all my attention to my robust plant on our deck. It actually had a green tomato on it about the size of a large grape. Proudly I watched it grow until Sunday, I walked out and I couldn't find the tomato. I looked where it should have been but only saw dried blossoms. Then I looked at the boards next to the urn and there it was. A little varmit (I suspect a chipmunk) had pulled it off and eaten off the top and then dropped it, like it wasn't good enough. This time I felt anger as well as grief. I wanted to kill that pesky thief.

Goldilocks: uh huh, strong feelings. I hope you let them go.

Cate: They might still be down there, but we'll talk about that later. So I accepted another backset and told myself there was still plenty of time for the plant to develop tomatoes. The weather has cooled down considerably from the low swealtering 90's of last week. Great tomato growing weather. But last night when I walked out on the deck my grief came up once more. The strong winds had broken one of the main dividing branches and it hang limply like a broken arm. I quickly located a soda straw and devised a makeshift splint. I'm hoping it will survive. It looked okay last night, but I didn't have the courage to look at it this morning. Today is another windy day and my mind wants me to fear the worst.

Goldilocks: Sounds like you have a problem.

Cate: (starting to discriminate) Well...not really. It's only in my mind. But I can't seem to shake it.

Goldilocks: Maybe you should try Ken's release process.

Cate: (thinking out loud) Maybe. But for some silly reason I just hate to see a tomato plant die. I really hate killing one outright. I don't know why. I guess because its a living thing and it's so vibrant and alive one minute and limp and lifeless the next. It's not a good feeling.

Goldilocks: Does that tell you something?

Cate: Yeah, my feelings are running me.

Goldilocks: Good, and what do you intend to do about it?

Cate: Get bigger than my ego and tell them to "take a hike" or " jump in the lake" because I don't need them any more.

Goldilocks: Good for you. I'd start bringing up all those feelings you have about killing tomato plants or watching them die. It's down there.

Cate: Thanks, Goldilocks. Oh, almost forgot I booked my flights to Asilomar for 9/4/09. Got the times I wanted and the price wasn't that bad either.

Goldilocks: You're also much more consistant this month with your reports. Another job well done. (pause) Imagine June is almost gone. See you in July. Goldilocks out.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

The Name Game

Cate: callig Goldilocks. Come in, please over

Goldilocks: Goldilocks here, Cate, go ahead over.

Cate: I have a strong chance if winning a name-game contest at work. If I win the company tag-line contest, the prize is $1,000.

Goldilocks: Hmmm, bet you could put that to good use.

Cate: And how. It would sure come in handy to pay some of that debt down.

Goldilocks: I understand you're making steady progress?

Cate: Slowly but surely. I just transfered the balance of one cedit card to another for another year of 0% interest.

Goldilocks: So tell me more about this "name" thing.

Cate: Oh, we're designing a brand new breakroom and since they name everything in this building, including the rooms, they're running contest for the best name. Winner is assured a BIG prize but they didn't say what that would be. Our parent company is looking for a new slogan with a $1000 prize. My brain has been doing double duty since the announcement of the first contest two weeks ago; creativity is flowing like a river. Releasing gives me clarity of thinking. Personally, I feel so motivated

Goldilocks: And what happens if you don't win? Do you beat yourself up?

Cate: Hopefully, not. I am having fun just watching the ideas pop into my head.

Goldilocks: (changing the subject) So, are you a big lottery jackpot winner yet?

Cate: Stop rubbing it in.

Goldilocks: Oh? Was it something I said?

Cate: (sullenly) You know how I want this to happen. It's so frustrating.

Goldilocks: Oh, so you want to win the lottery. Did I hear you correctly?

Cate: Not really. What I really want is to remove my blocks to being wealthy, have lots of money. That is one of my blocks. A major block I might add.

Goldilocks: So you're gonna remove the block by wanting it? Good luck.

Cate: Well, I am making progress. I got one number right. Now if the ego would just let me uncover those hidden thoughts and programs I'd be there.

Goldilocks: Practice make perfect, I always say. Uh, gotta run. But keep me posted. This is getting interesting.

Cate: Goldilocks, wait... (silence)

(to learn more about The Release Technique go to www.releasetechnique.com/info)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Exonerated

Cate: Cate, calling Goldilocks, come in please, over.

Goldilocks: (stroking chin) Well, well, Cate, you really are getting more consistant. What's up?

Cate: Great news, Goldilocks, Father Justin Belitz has been exonerated by the Catholic Church. His name has been cleared.

Goldilocks: That's wonderful, Cate. You wrote a great letter.

Cate: Did you like it? I tried not to be too judgemental but when it comes to the "pharisees" of the Catholic church I just went to let them have it both barrels.

Goldilocks: Hmmm, do you happen to see a little bit of yourself in them?

Cate: Is my pride showing?

Goldilocks: Like a bright, yellow, neon billboard flashing in nano seconds.

Cate: Pride is a challenge for me.

Goldilocks: Yes, I know. Join the club.

Cate: I was able to share the Release Technique method yesterday at the energy circle.

Goldilocks: Another job well done. You've gotten so much better in that area.

Cate: I feel so much more comfortable now.

Goldilocks: I've noticed

Cate: Beingness is making it so easy as long as I keep letting go.

Goldilocks: That is the nuts and bolts of releasing isn't it?

Cate: Right, now I'm going to think really big. I wanna see if I can win the lottery by knocking out all my "I can't's". Whatdya think?

Goldilocks: I think you've bitten off more than you can chew. But if you wanna go for it, I'll be behind you every step of the way.

Cate: Thanks, Goldilocks, that's all that I ask.

(to experience releasing for yourself go to www.releasetechnique.com/info)

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Feeling Like a Million Bucks!

Cate: Cate, calling Goldilocks, come in, Goldilocks, over.

Goldilocks: Papa Bear...er I mean Goldilocks here, I read you, go ahead Cate, over

Cate: (excitedly) I feel it, Goldilocks, I really feel it! (having a hard time containing her exhuberance)

Goldilocks: Whoa! calm down, take it easy, Cate. Now, what is it that you feel? (aside to himself) Besides giving me a heart attack)

Cate: I was practicing feeling like a multi-millionaire and I really have that feeling that "yes, I am" or "yes, I can!"

Goldilocks: Hmm, wouldn't surprise me if they were both one in the same.

Cate: I am going to be a multi-millionaire! I know it. And it's going to happen very soon. And it isn't going to stop there. I am going to have unlimited abundance in all areas of my life. I understand what James was trying to tell me in January. "You're not happy because you have money. You have money because you are happy."

Goldilocks: I would call that an eternal truth wouldn't you?

Cate: I feel happy, Goldilocks. This day is flying by and I have lots of production with very little effort.

Goldilocks: I believe that is how the method works isn't it?

Cate: Yes, of course. Now, if I could just let go of my fear of promoting My Power Mall, life would be a piece of cake.

Goldilocks: (tongue in cheek) Just don't try to eat it and have it too.

Cate: That sounds a lot like Larry's "you can't stand up and sit down at the same time. You either "want" or "have."

Goldilocks: Hmm, I think you've got something there. Looks like we are running out of time. Gotta run.

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Friday, June 12, 2009

Reflections

Cate: Goldilocks is unreachable today but I still wanted to share some thoughts
with the universe. Maintaining this feeling of happiness and joy is an all
time job. Just "being" what you are or, rather, what I am. takes vigilance and perseverance. And since it is such a commitment, my ego comes up with every excuse in the book why a I shouldn't. But since I've tasted what's it like, I want off this blankety blank hamster wheel.

On a more positive note, let me share some gains. I convinced Bank of America to credit back a late fee when the rep told me he could only refund half, yes! Massage Therapist interested in My Power Mall and the Release Technique.

That's all for now. Working Saturday

Thursday, June 11, 2009

The Witness

Cate: Cate, calling Goldilocks, come in, please, over

Goldilocks: Goldilocks, here. This must be important since you're contacting me two days in a row. Wow! What's up?

Cate: (with some guilt) Nothing really important. I just wanted to talk if that's okay. I feel like I've been neglecting you and this mission lately.

Goldilocks: (tongue in cheek) That's down right, decent of you, Cate. I was feeling a bit lonely and forgotten, kinda like an old horse that's been put out to pasture.

Cate: (miffed) All right, you can lay off the pity party. You're activating my approval program.

Goldilocks: (sternly) And may I remind you I out rank you.

Cate: Look who's pulling out the pride all of a sudden.

Goldilocks: Do you want to act like a 2-year-old, or do you want to talk? I have better things to do.

Cate: (stifling a laugh) Like munching grass or swatting the flies off your backside?

Goldilocks: (outraged) All right, that does it. I'm outta here.

Cate: I'm sorry, sir. I didn't mean to be disrespectful. I just couldn't resist a little dig here and there. I guess I've been around you too long. I'm starting to feel like you.

Goldilocks: (soft laughter) You wanna know something? You really do sound like me. Comes with the territory I guess.

Cate: Well, I have studied you for a long time. And I love your quips and clever remarks. I hope you didn't feel offended.

Goldilocks: Naw, (pause) Wanna know something? It's kinda nice coming face to face with myself. Surprising, but nice. So, what didja wanna talk about?

Cate: Lester keeps emphasizing how important it is to detach ourselves from this body. That if we would stop identifying with it, we would experience our unlimitedness. But he also said it isn't easy. In fact, he said if we insist on saying, I am this body" it is impossible to experience who we really are. I wish there was some easy way to do this, to let go.

Goldilocks: I'm surprised at you, Cate. (to himself) How quickly they forget. It's called RELEASING. That's what I'm here for. That's all the whole purpose of this mission.

Cate: Yes, I know. But it is so easy to get distracted. I just can't remember to release moment to moment. I know I've been told this body, this world is only a thought. But it looks and feels so real. And I get so frustrated with all the worldly disires and misery. I just want to rise above it all. Go free.

Goldilocks: So why don't you? It's just a decision, or so I'm told.

Cate: (savagely) Oh, stop it! Stop preaching at me!

Goldilocks: (softly with great gentleness) Cate, your happiness is not out there no matter how many tempting carrots they dangle in front of your nose. It isn't real.

Cate: I keep telling myself that. But I want to wake up. Now!

Goldilocks: I think that's why I keep hearing "patience is a virtue." Look you're obviously into beating yourself up. Why don't you find a nice quiet place and release. Things will look much better in the morning. Good idea?

Cate: Okay, it's just that when I sit in this blasted call center and I'm controlled down to my pee and my thoughts. It stinks.

Goldilocks: Go fly a kite, Cate and smile, then call me in the morning. Goldilocks out.



Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Flying High

Cate: Cate calling Goldilocks. Come in Goldilocks, over

Goldilocks: (surprise and relief) Cate, is that you? I mean is it really you? I've been trying to contact you for days. I'd about given up hope. We thought the Enemy had devoured you.

Cate: It's really me, Goldilocks. And I am wonderful. Even better I'm still flying from Camp Allen. What an awesome seven days in May. I didn't want it to end. I think I'm really getting this Release Technique for the first time. I mean really getting it.

Goldilocks: That's wonderful, Cate, but you realize you're making an old man of me with these long hiatuses without even an inkling or a clue where you've disappeared to?

Cate: I'm sorry, Goldilocks, it was a secret mission and I couldn't even tell you the actual dates. Sorta like D-day I guess. The Enemy would have loved to have gotten a spy in that room to ferret out all our secrets.

Goldilocks: I wouldn't worry, Cate. The Enemy doesn't have a clue what you're doing. Correction, He knows what you're doing, He just doesn't have a clue how you're doing it.

Cate: You know, Goldilocks, it's wonderful not to identify with the body or the mind. You get to that place where there are no problems, worries, or anything else. It just is. Larry calls it a mental orgasim and I was there, experiencing it for the firs time. It was so joyful and peaceful, I just want everyone to experience and know about what happened at Camp Allen, Texas.

Goldilocks: Gee, maybe I should go the next time.

Cate: But you know, Goldilocks, this retreat was different than the others. I suppose because I am at a much higher level than a year ago or even six months ago. I really wanted to come back. I was ready to face the world and all its negativity with what I had heard and understood. I felt like I was ready. I had all the ammo under my belt particularly the joy and peace. And that feeling of joy did not dissapate after 24 or 48 hours. It remained. I would wake up in joy many many mornings and it carried me. Even when the Enemy tried to bring me down with a week's worth of laryngitis, the joy still lingered in the background, like a soft aura surrounding me. It was wonderful.

Goldilocks: (softly) guess there's not too much I can say is there? You know who you are and that is all that matters.

Cate: But I still have certain frustrations that just won't go away. I'm not there yet, almost, but not quite. (pause) We can still talk, right? I promise I'll be more faithful.

Goldilocks: (lost in thought) Hmmm...oh, sure. Whatever you want. But there will come a day, when you won't need me to figure things out. You'll just know, like you did at Camp Allen. Well, now that I know you're safe and sound, I need to report to HQ. My butt has been in a sling since you've been gone and it'd be nice to be able to sit down, relax and contemplate a few things. Talk to you soon. Goldilocks out.