Alls Well That Ends Well

Cate: Cate calling Goldilocks, come in, please, over

Goldilocks: Goldilocks, here, go ahead over

Cate: The last day of 2008. Whew! What a year.

Goldilocks: Especially the last three months wouldn't you agree?

Cate: Sure. I have made incredible progress since Asilomar. As I told James last night, without The Release Technique, I would be suffering and miserable right now. The Ego can still zap me with the little things, but at least I'm doing a lot better at letting it go.

Goldilocks: Like with your nephew on Christmas day?

Cate: yeah, the trouble with ego is, it takes me by surprise and I hardly have time to throw up a shield, much less put on the armour. I wanted to slap him across the room for such infantile behavior. He always was a spoiled brat, a mama's boy, but I wasn't expecting him to lash out at me like that. I don't like it when someone one is upset with me, Mom's big program, but I'm handling it a lot better each time it happens. I was expecting someone to step in and support me, but since that didn't happen, I took the responsibility and dealt with it.

Goldilocks: Did you feel courageous?

Cate: Maybe not the instant I realized he was yelling at me, but I was amazed at how well I stood my ground and didn't give in to his temper tantrum. Ego wanted me to beat myself up, and I did thr0ugh much of dinner, but once I was able to get away and discriminate, (accept what had happened) I felt joyful. To be honest, Goldilocks, I was amazed at my courage.

Goldilocks: (quietly) And so was I. You endured a surprise attack and came out smelling like a rose.

Cate: So, tell me, Goldilocks, why do I stress out so much over the little stuff. Like MagicJack and messages that say "your mailbox is over the size limit" and overdraft notices? Why do I find myself rushing everywhere feeling totally out of control? Why can't I slow down and relax and just enjoy life?

Goldilocks: You tell me.

Cate: I know the answer. I'm identifying with Him, the Enemy, the ego. He makes me a slave to my mind and my body.

Goldilocks: Does He? Or are you giving your power away? Think about it, or rather discriminate.

Cate: (half laughing) You're right as always, Goldilocks. I am feeling my abundance. And that trickle is turning into a stream.

Goldilocks: And pretty soon it will be a raging torrent with a power all its own.

Cate: That's what I want for the new year, abundance in all areas of my life. But mostly I want peace of mind, where overdraft notices won't phase me and I won't feel so ruled and out of control.

Goldilocks: Then decide that for yourself. You have the power. Life is just a decision, or is it?

Cate: (joyfully) Yes, it is. It most definitely is. Look out 2009 Cate is ready to claim her abundance...all of it!!! (pause) You'll still be here, won't you, Goldilocks? I mean...we can still talk?

Goldilocks: Sure, I'm in it for the laughs anyway. 2009 is gonna have a barrel of 'em.

Cate: (determinedly) Count on it. Talk to you next year. It's gonna be the greatest yet. Cate out.

Goldilocks: (softly, under breath) If you only knew. Goldilocks out.