In The Know

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate, come in, please, over.

Cate: Cate here, Goldilocks. Go ahead over.

Goldilocks: Anything to report?

Cate: ups and downs; mainily "ups" and a big, big mission ahead of me.

Goldilocks: That wouldn't be a suicide mission would it?

Cate: (sardonically) How did you ever guess?

Goldilocks: I'm a Colonel, remember? It's my job to know.

Cate: (sarcastically) That's right, I keep forgetting. Y0u know everything.

Goldilocks: (sternly) Do you have a problem with that? (pause) You have that same knowledge you know.

Cate: (robot-like) I know, I know...I mean...I wish I really did know like you. Then this life wouldn't be such a pain in the rear echelon.

Goldilocks: (ignores this) So, tell me about your last battle with the Enemy. Was it a victory for our side?

Cate: (brightening) Yes, it was. It most definitely was. It sure didn't seem like it going into it. The Enemy caught me by surprise and I found myself out-manned and out-gunned. I thought he had me in a crossfire and I was gonna break down and lose it.

Goldilocks: (gently) So, what happened?

Cate: (gleam in eye) I turned to my secret weapon and shield, The Release Technique and Beingness. As long as I was loving Martha and letting go of my fear, I was fully protected from the vicious onslaught. By the end of the call, I was feeling very courageous. (pause) That is okay isn't it, Goldilocks?

Goldilocks: (evasively) I dunno. You tell me. Is it?

Cate: Well, I know it sounds like this pride thing which is the "P" in AGFLAP, but it was a total victory and I felt good about it. Doggone it, Goldilocks, you have someone yell at you and try to tear you down for ten or fifteen minutes and see how you feel. I stopped the automatic program and got bigger than my ego. I can't say I wasn't totally not bothered by the situation, but I'm getting better at His game every time I play.

Goldilocks: (gentle and knowing smile) I know you are.

Cate: The trouble is I don't know when it's coming. I have such little time to prepare. He throws such curves and He certainly doesn't fight fair. How was I to know a Releaser would turn on me and then use the method to make me feel guilty. That's really hitting below the belt in my book.

Goldilocks: I warned you didn't I?

Cate: Yeah, but not enough, not nearly enough. It's hard to know who your friends are. You have to be on guard against anybody and everybody. When you least expect it, they will turn on you. It's like a bad dream or nightmare where evil lurks behind every tree and rock. (long pause with shudder) Even you...(voice trails)

Goldilocks: Am I the enemy?

Cate: (small voice) I don't want you to be...

Goldilocks: (sternly) That wasn't my question. Am I the Enemy?

(Heavy silence)

Goldilocks: (gently but firmly) Cate, I know you're there. Answer me, please.

Cate: (wails) I don't know... I don't want to know...

Goldilocks: Cate, the whole purpose of this mission and The Release Technique is for you to know. Are you telling me you don't have the guts to continue?

Cate: (half crying) But Goldilocks, you're my support, my anchor in the face of the... (in total denial) No! Goldilocks, you can't be the Enemy. You just can't. I won't go on without you.

Goldilocks: (angrily) Cate, if I could reach through this transmitter and shake you, I would. Now get a hold of yourself. Do you see what the Enemy is doing? You're an emotional mess.

Cate: (totally confused) But, but...you just said. Are you my friend or a wolf in sheep's clothing? Tell me. I can't handle this about-face act dammit.

Goldilocks: (soft laugh) Not sure. Why don't you ask Martha.

Cate: (light bulb clicks on) Oh, my... You're both aren't you? Just like me. (half to self) Why didn't I see that before?

Goldilocks (changing the subject) So, what about this important mission tonight?

Cate: I've gotten my courage up to ask for a $5000 refund from Dan Kuschell's group.

Goldilocks: And are you fully prepared to do battle?

Cate: (sighs) part of me is and part of me isn't. It's easy to say "yes" to the refund but there's that small voice or gut feeling that keeps whispering, "you are dreaming" or "no, no, never, never huh, huh."

Goldilocks: So, what's your plan of action?

Cate: To surrender to Beingness, or "let go and let God" and hope for the best.

Goldilocks: Sounds good to me. Remember, go in expecting to win.

Cate: And if I don't?

Goldilocks: You can answer that.

Cate: (smiles) Right, don't let the Enemy gloat over his victory by beating myself up.

Goldilocks: (grinning) Couldn't have said it better myself. Huh, anything else?

Cate: Wish me luck?

Goldilocks: Naw, I wish you Abundance in all its forms.

Cate: Goldilocks, you're the best...

Goldilocks: (interrupting) No better than you. Now, you'd better spend some time getting ready. This is going to be a tough one. Goldilocks out.

Cate: (quickly) I will...and thank you...for everything! Cate out.