Need Some Ego Holding?

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate, come in please, over

Cate: Cate here, Goldilocks, go ahead over

Goldilocks: Are you ready to talk now; get it off your chest?

Cate: Hope you're a good listener 'cause this post could go long.

Goldilocks: (suppressing a grin) I'm all ears. (pause) Seriously, I know you've got a lot to unload.

Cate: (frustration in voice) Doggone it, Goldilocks, I hate this ego and what it is doing to me. I want to dump this whole thing.

Goldilocks: Huh huh, wrong attitude I'm afraid. You're only feeding it.

Cate: And it's having a gourmet dinner complete with appetizer and desert at my expense. I need help, please.

Goldilocks: Sorry, you'll have to get your own answers.

Cate: (hurt and angry) Goldilocks, how could you?! I'm depending on you.

Goldilocks: (bluntly) Well, don't. Look, you're not some helpless little kid who can't blow his own nose.

Cate: You sound like my husband.

Goldilocks: (refusing to be distracted) Fine. I'm telling you. You are not a victim unless you decide to give your power to the Enemy. And I don't talk to egos. Do I make myself clear?

Cate: (wipes away a tear) Oh, boy, loud and clear. So loud in fact you drowned out the ego, or it suddenly shut up. The fog just cleared, thank you.

Goldilocks: Don't thank me. I didn't do anything. You did it yourself. You do have the power you know.

Cate: (feeling guilty) I know. I know. I just keep forgetting. I mean the ego doesn't want me to remember. Sometimes I think I'll never get it.

Goldilocks: (severerly) Now, you're beating yourself up. Let me repeat that profound line from that wonderful Bob Newhart video. (Loudly and with emphasis) STOP IT! Did you hear what I said? STOP IT! NOW!

Cate: (smiling) Now, that you have successfully rescued me from the Jaws of Certain Death better known as the ego, is it okay if I share?

Goldilocks: That's fine, Cate, shoot (pause) I mean, go ahead.

Cate: I had such a high on Sunday with hours of releasing thinking I had released all my "wants", and freedom was only hours if not minutes away, and then Monday, ZAP! I wanted to kill George for all his critical attacks. James cleared the fog on Monday night and I felt a huge chunk drop away in seconds.

Goldilocks: (enthusiastically) That's what I want to hear.

Cate: (sighs) Yeah, but that "wanting approval" program must have a tap root that goes down to China and then wraps itself several times around this planet. Larry, hit it square on last night, and I came close to breaking down and bawling.

Goldilocks: And that's not okay?

Cate: Hell, no it's not...(stops suddenly) okay...(voice trails) (to herself) All those feelings, coming up to leave... (to Goldilocks) I did let go of some of them. I mean, I was amazed at how quickly I let go of the hurt.

Goldilocks: And did you thank Larry?

Cate: I did mentally because it was a huge victory for freedom. I know he knows, but just to satisfy that hungry ego, I shot off an e-mail just now.

Goldilocks: Good for you.

Cate: I think I'm struggling with mixed messages right now. I really want to blast through this money block but see it almost as a distraction on my goal for freedom. I guess the question is, which should I focus on if I don't have time to do both?

Goldilocks: Hmmm, you do have a problem.

Cate: (earnestly) What would you do?

Goldilocks: Why don't you try going to the source rather than ask your mind. You just might find the answer, and not just any answer but the answer. (He hides a smile) Feel better now?

Cate: Sooo much better. You wouldn't believe...(sees his knowing expression) ...yes you would. Thank you, Goldilocks for helping me sort it all out.

Goldilocks: Any time. You know where to find me. Goldilocks out.

Cate: (under breath) Next time

Another Day More Gains

Cate: Cate calling Goldilocks, come in, over

Goldilocks: Goldilocks here, Cate, so glad to hear from you. Go ahead, over

Cate: Interesting week. Since I am on a positive streak I'll start there. More and more I just want to sit down on my butt and release and release and release. I'm not concerned about the economy, the politics anything going on in the world. I want it to "evaporate and dissolve as Larry says. I feel so good when I release and my day is so harmonious. Yesterday I shared the method with old Mr. Kahlo who seemed genuinely interested. Of course I could tell the clerk at CVS was grateful for my sharing as well. Love is wonderful.

Goldilocks: That's great, Cate

Cate: I am so motivated to release and achieve my goals. Larry's "Butt System" is awesome and he makes it so easy. What I'd really like is for George to go with me to Camp Allen in December and to have the funds to come in that make it possible.

Goldilocks: Sounds like a plan. So, do you believe it's possible, or in other words is that an "I can" feeling?

Cate: Not sure yet. Haven't really had time to sit down and do the attachments and aversions; to let it all go. (pause) Wouldn't be nice if I got a million dollars from that scratch and win game at Kahlo Jeep?

Goldilocks: Do you think you can?

Cate: I have this fear coming up. But I'm going to release and ask Beingness for the numbers before I do it.

Goldilocks: Great insight, Cate. It should be interesting. (pause) Huh, how are you and your sister getting on?

Cate: Not well. Personally, I just want to avoid her. I know she's hurting and I'd like to do something, but she rejects everything I say.

Goldilocks: I take it, you're feeling rejected?

Cate: You could say that, yes.

Goldilocks: May I gently remind you that you can't be rejected unless you're doing the rejecting. In other words, you are the rejector.

Cate: (sullenly) It sure doesn't feel that way. I can't seem to wrap my mind around that concept.

Goldilocks: Neither can you figure it out either, no matter how much you try. (pause) End of lesson. So, what are you going to do?

Cate: Send her love and approval mentally and hope she changes.

Goldilocks: And is it okay if she never changes?

Cate: You're starting to sound like James.

Goldilocks: Never mind the distractions, I'm helping you sort through this. Well, could you?

Cate: Personally, she could disappear from my life and we'd both be better off.

Goldilocks: I take it she intimidates you.

Cate: (sarcastically) What an amazing feat of mind reading, what gave you a clue?

Goldilocks: Because you're feelings are about to choke you or smother you. You're not feeling very loving toward her are you?

Cate: No, I'm not. I have Mom's phobia: tread lightly around volatile people. I don't enjoy being told off. I'm just looking out for #1. Call it a survival tactic.

Goldilocks: Sounds like you have a better understanding of where your mother is coming from with your sister-in-law. Not as judgemental perhaps?

Cate: That too. Let's face it, Goldilocks, the Ego has me prisoner, yet again.

Goldilocks: You know what to do without me telling you.

Cate: Like I said before, I need more time to release. Make that quality time. Hopefully, this weekend.

Goldilocks: I'm glad you at least reached out for help yesterday when I wasn't available.

Cate: I need to do that more often. I don't seem to discriminate too well, or easily.

Goldilocks: Can't see the forest for the trees? Or, perhaps, I should say can't see freedom for all the garbage lying around.

Cate: (half grinning) Nope, I'm too busy beating myself black and blue. I do hope
George goes to Camp Allen with me. It would be so awesome. Of course I need the money as well or it's a "no go."

Goldilocks: Let me ask you something. Would you go if George wanted to go even if you didn't have the money?

Cate: Absolutely, that is one reason I would be willing to go further into debt for. As far as my perfect attendance at work, that is a no brainer. If George wants to go, wild horses or credit card debt couldn't keep me away.

Goldilocks (smiling) Sounds like you've got your head on straight and your priorities sorted out. Anything else I can help you with?

Cate: (shakes head) No, Goldilocks, thanks for listening and for being there for me.

Goldilocks: Any time. Talk to you next week. Goldilocks out.

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A New Awareness

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate. Come in please, over


Cate: Cate, here, Goldilocks, go ahead, over.

Goldilocks: My gut tells me you just had an incredible last 10 days or so; mainly highs, but some lows. Wanna talk about it?

Cate: (slowly) Where do I begin?

Goldilocks: (with great sensitivity) Anywhere you'd like. Remember, I'm a good news man myself.


Cate: I'm beginning to get a much better understanding why the mind only wants to dwell on the bad news or negativity.


Goldilocks: Tell me about it?


Cate: I thought you already knew everything.


Goldilocks: But you do want to talk about it don't you?


Cate: What makes you so wise?


Goldilocks: (humorously) Clean living. (pause) Never mind. How do you feel?


Cate: (sighs) incredibly peaceful under the circumstances.


Goldilocks: That is the goal isn't it or am I off base?


Cate: No, it should feel great, but the ego is messing with my mind and it feels strange to feel this way when my entire family is reeling from the shock.


Goldilocks: Tell me about Sunday. I thought it might be time to celebrate a great victory, go home and start collecting more of that back pay that I keep accumulating. You were almost there you know.


Cate: Was I?


Goldilocks: You would know that better than me.


Cate: (earnestly) Tell me, Goldilocks. Please, tell me.


Goldilocks: Sorry, I can't because I don't know. Only you do.


Cate: But that's the problem, Goldilocks, I'm not sure. And I want to be sure.


Goldilocks: Did you hear what you just said?


Cate: (smiling) Yeah, that I want something really, really bad.


Goldilocks: (continuing the discrimination process) And what does that mean?


Cate: (grinning broadly) That I can't have it because I'm in lack.


Goldilocks: Need I say more?


Cate: Nope, the hammer hit the thumb square on. One thing I did notice on Sunday, that I was not forcing it or trying to control it like before.


Goldilocks: I'd say that was progress, wouldn't you?


Cate: (sheepishly) I was feeling rather proud of myself. Yeah right, letting that feeling go, I can say I felt different. It wasn't really an out-of-body experience like I was expecting, but more of a detached sensation like I didn't belong, like I was above it all. Am I making any sense?


Goldilocks: Sure


Cate: (skeptically) You're not just saying that?


Goldilocks: No, I'm not. (pause) You're about to tell me more.


Cate: (nodding) Part of me was disappointed but then as I listened to the CD, a revelation hit...not exactly at that moment but later.


Goldilocks: (intrigued) Tell me more.


Cate: Larry emphasized to the graduates that each of us will experience freedom differently. Some may laugh hysterically, others may collapse with tremors. He did say we will experience it based on what we believe freedom to be. Naturally, I just assumed it would be a totally WOW! experience. That's because of my uniqueness and specialness. (do you see a little pride creeping in here?)


Goldilocks: hmmm, do tell


Cate: I mean I thought there would be whistles and bells or at least an incredible joy. What I did experience was something that was almost a mental orgasm. I felt this incredible feeling only briefly, like an energy flowing out of my body and then it stopped. But I continued to stay calm, peaceful and happy. Do you think that was it?


Goldilocks: hmmm, dunno, what do you think?

Cate: (gloomily) I wish I knew. (pause) I mean, I wish I really knew.

Goldilocks: Sounds to me like that "wish" is really a "want" wouldn't you say?

Cate: (sigh) Yes, I know it is.

Goldilocks: It also sounds like you're wanting control.

Cate: (nods) Yeah, that too.

Goldilocks: Just a suggestion but you might try letting go of that and see what happens. You just might surprise yourself, you know what I mean?

Cate: (now laughing softly) Funny, I know exactly what you mean.

Goldilocks: (brightening) Now, that we've gotten that out of the way, tell me about your brother-in-law.

Cate: (despondently) He committed suicide.

Goldilocks: Yes, I know

Cate: (momentarily taken aback) Oh...I...you don't need to explain. I'm still trying to wrap my brain around this.

Goldilocks: (gently) How do you feel?

Cate: Amazingly pretty calm and peaceful considering the rest of my family. I feel so sorry for my poor sister. I wouldn't have wished something like this on my worst enemy.

Goldilocks: (softly) Which resides inside your head.

Cate: Yeah...I know he was unhappy and I tried reaching out to him but...I didn't act soon enough...(voice trails)

Goldilocks: Not sure, but I think you're beating yourself up now.

Cate: (slightly miffed) I wish you wouldn't do that.

Goldilocks: What? Remind you that the Enemy just launched a successful frontal attack and you can't remember who or what you're fighting for?

Cate: (angrily) At least you could show some consideration for my feelings. The guy blew himself up for Christ sakes. He nearly killed someone else in the process and my sister is terrified they'll be sued for everthing they have... (puts hand to forehead and shakes it) I'm sorry, Goldilocks, you're right as always. I don't know why I snapped at you like that. I lost my head. I'm sorry.

Goldilocks: No, Cate, It was my fault. You're entitled to your feelings, as long as you have them. And you have every right to be angry. Sometimes I come on a little too strong for my own good.

Cate: (imploringly) No, Goldilocks, I want you to do what you just did. I want you to keep reminding me my bedfellow is a dangerous rattle snake, no matter how you do it. Shake me, beat me, but don't stop, please don't ever stop. (with determination) He will not win, not as long as I have a breath in me. Freedom will have the victory this I pledge.

Goldilocks: Bravo, Cate, now what else did you want to tell me?

Cate: (not understading) What do you mean?

Goldilocks: You know without me telling you.

Cate: You mean how it's been affecting me?

Goldilocks: Hmmm, could be.

Cate: Well, it has and is affecting me strangely.

Goldilocks: How so?

Cate: Like it isn't bothering me, like I'm staying, for most part, peaceful and calm despite the hell that is affecting my sister and family. It's almost like God/Beingness has wrapped me with an impervious shield or shell and nothing can get in. Ego is trying to convince me that the shock has left me numb and unfeeling...

Goldilocks: (interrupting gently) But you're not buying it.

Cate: (lost in thought) No, I'm not, not after the high I felt on Sunday. It's a lie and I know it's a lie. I'm staying happy and positive despite what happened just like Larry teaches in The Abundance Course.

Goldilocks: Good for you. What else?

Cate: That I'm still caught up with the drama and the horrific circumstances and I want to tell anyone and everyone I know. (pause) Why do I feel this way?

Goldilocks: I dunno. You tell me.

Cate: I've thought about it. I know I like the attention. Is that wanting approval or control?

Goldilocks: Does it matter? The point is, you're wanting something,

Cate: I suppose. You'd think I'd want to protect my poor sister from anymore hurt or shame. But I don't. Am I a terrible person for that?

Goldilocks: Rattle, rattle. I hear the Devil knocking.

Cate: Thanks, Goldilocks for keeping me on course and focused.

Goldilocks: Don't thank me. You're doing it all. I'm just along for the ride.

Cate: I promise you a wild one.

Goldilocks: (hiding a grin) I prefer it be a short one.

Cate: (returning grin) I'll drink to that. (pause) Uh, I'm sure I've bent your ear enough for one day. But seriously, you are an invaluable help and support. If not for you, I'd be dead meat and being served up as the ego's main course long ago. Promise, you'll be there for me.

Goldilocks: How could I refuse such a gracious request? Truthfully though, I couldn't refuse you and you know I couldn't. I'll let you chew on that until next time. Goldilocks out.

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A Leave of Absence

Cate: Cate calling Goldilocks, come in please

Goldilocks: Goldilocks here, Cate, go ahead over

Cate: Just wanted to let you know that Mama Bear wants me to take some R and R and clear my head for a few days so I didn't want you to think I was in any kind of trouble.

Goldilocks: Thanks for the heads up. (pause) Do, I, uh detect some frustrations in your life?

Cate: Always, Goldilocks. I can't seem to get a handle on it no matter how hard I try. I think I've finally put it all behind me, and then BOOM! He's got me.

Goldilocks: Dudn't sound too positive to me. You seem to be dwelling on your problems and forgetting your progress. You also have a bad habit of making a mountain out of a mole hill.

Cate: You seem to know my ego very well. Do you two have a personal relationship or something?

Goldilocks: (mock seriousness) Bite your tongue.

Cate: (gloomily) As a matter of fact I've been doing just that; and I mean physically too.

Goldilocks: Look, I'm gonna let you go for now. Mama Bear was right in pulling you back. It gives you a chance to regroup and realize what is important without hearing a lecture from me; which I know you're not ready for right now. Let me leave you with this advice, focus on your progress and don't get sidetracked by a few bumps in the road. Enjoy your leave. Talk to you soon, Goldilocks out.

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