Need Some Ego Holding?

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate, come in please, over

Cate: Cate here, Goldilocks, go ahead over

Goldilocks: Are you ready to talk now; get it off your chest?

Cate: Hope you're a good listener 'cause this post could go long.

Goldilocks: (suppressing a grin) I'm all ears. (pause) Seriously, I know you've got a lot to unload.

Cate: (frustration in voice) Doggone it, Goldilocks, I hate this ego and what it is doing to me. I want to dump this whole thing.

Goldilocks: Huh huh, wrong attitude I'm afraid. You're only feeding it.

Cate: And it's having a gourmet dinner complete with appetizer and desert at my expense. I need help, please.

Goldilocks: Sorry, you'll have to get your own answers.

Cate: (hurt and angry) Goldilocks, how could you?! I'm depending on you.

Goldilocks: (bluntly) Well, don't. Look, you're not some helpless little kid who can't blow his own nose.

Cate: You sound like my husband.

Goldilocks: (refusing to be distracted) Fine. I'm telling you. You are not a victim unless you decide to give your power to the Enemy. And I don't talk to egos. Do I make myself clear?

Cate: (wipes away a tear) Oh, boy, loud and clear. So loud in fact you drowned out the ego, or it suddenly shut up. The fog just cleared, thank you.

Goldilocks: Don't thank me. I didn't do anything. You did it yourself. You do have the power you know.

Cate: (feeling guilty) I know. I know. I just keep forgetting. I mean the ego doesn't want me to remember. Sometimes I think I'll never get it.

Goldilocks: (severerly) Now, you're beating yourself up. Let me repeat that profound line from that wonderful Bob Newhart video. (Loudly and with emphasis) STOP IT! Did you hear what I said? STOP IT! NOW!

Cate: (smiling) Now, that you have successfully rescued me from the Jaws of Certain Death better known as the ego, is it okay if I share?

Goldilocks: That's fine, Cate, shoot (pause) I mean, go ahead.

Cate: I had such a high on Sunday with hours of releasing thinking I had released all my "wants", and freedom was only hours if not minutes away, and then Monday, ZAP! I wanted to kill George for all his critical attacks. James cleared the fog on Monday night and I felt a huge chunk drop away in seconds.

Goldilocks: (enthusiastically) That's what I want to hear.

Cate: (sighs) Yeah, but that "wanting approval" program must have a tap root that goes down to China and then wraps itself several times around this planet. Larry, hit it square on last night, and I came close to breaking down and bawling.

Goldilocks: And that's not okay?

Cate: Hell, no it's not...(stops suddenly) okay...(voice trails) (to herself) All those feelings, coming up to leave... (to Goldilocks) I did let go of some of them. I mean, I was amazed at how quickly I let go of the hurt.

Goldilocks: And did you thank Larry?

Cate: I did mentally because it was a huge victory for freedom. I know he knows, but just to satisfy that hungry ego, I shot off an e-mail just now.

Goldilocks: Good for you.

Cate: I think I'm struggling with mixed messages right now. I really want to blast through this money block but see it almost as a distraction on my goal for freedom. I guess the question is, which should I focus on if I don't have time to do both?

Goldilocks: Hmmm, you do have a problem.

Cate: (earnestly) What would you do?

Goldilocks: Why don't you try going to the source rather than ask your mind. You just might find the answer, and not just any answer but the answer. (He hides a smile) Feel better now?

Cate: Sooo much better. You wouldn't believe...(sees his knowing expression) ...yes you would. Thank you, Goldilocks for helping me sort it all out.

Goldilocks: Any time. You know where to find me. Goldilocks out.

Cate: (under breath) Next time