Onward and Upward

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate. Come in, please, over.

Cate: Cate, here, Goldilocks, go ahead

Goldilocks: Thought I would hear from you yesterday. Any problems?

Cate: Not really, just the usual Ego struggles and challenges. I really wanted to see if I could give myself approval for three or four hours like the homework said.

Goldilocks: Hmm, and did you?

Cate: Not too bad considering. I thought I was supposed to say "I love you" (myself) over and over which is hard to do. And then Larry clarified on Monday, it was a matter of staying positive any way you can. I can do that a lot easier.

Goldilocks: (teasingly) You're sure?

Cate: All right, it depends on the day and my mood.

Goldilocks: (thoughtfully) I see, and who's mood is it?

Cate: All right, it's mine. I'm the owner. I decide. But doggone it some days are easier than others.

Goldilocks: Like Monday night when Larry was once again, bashing your ego.

Cate: I wish you wouldn't remind me. I want to forget that unpleasant moment.

Goldilocks: Whoa! Red flag. Incoming goons! Take cover.

Cate: (slightly miffed) What are you talking about?

Goldilocks: It's called suppressing. That's exactly what the Enemy wants you to do, stuff it and forget it. Score a big one for the Enemy.

Cate: (glowering) All right, all right, you've made your point. I can't even be human around you.

Goldilocks: (severely) If that's what you want, be my guest. Be human; be as human as you like, with all the misery and suffering; and stuffing of all those uncomfortable thoughts/feelings.

Cate: (bitterly) Goldilocks, stop it!

Goldilocks: (taken aback) Excuse me? What did you say? I'm the one that should be telling you to "STOP IT!" Or better yet, listen to yourself. Obviously, you're not listening to me.

Cate: (coming to her senses) I'm sorry, Goldilocks, but Larry can be so vicious. It hurt a lot.

Goldilocks: Aw, and your ego got bruised and angry right?

Cate: Well...

Goldilocks: And then what did it do? It grew to monstrous size and tried to strangle you. And poor Cate sat there feeling like that helpless victim that she always does when someone tries to attack her.

Cate: (as if awakening) Dammit! He got me.

Goldilocks: Uh huh, you could say that. I know you tried dropping it like the first time, but I detect a bit of negativity in you. Call it a grudge about what happened, excess baggage that is weighing you down, whatever. It doesn't matter. But what does matter is you don't want it to happen again, so you're trying to protect yourself with fear. It won't work, Cate. I'm tellin' you. Wise up. You're smarter than that.

Cate: (thoughtfully) What makes you so wise, Goldilocks?

Goldilocks: (lightly) Associating with you.

Cate: I don't believe that but lets move on. We've beaten this dead horse enough.

Goldilocks: (brightens) I'm all for that.

Cate: I'm really determined to get one of my money goals so I'm trying a different approach. Saying "yes " to the goal, the doubts, resistance, and feelings. I had a great morning releasing on this especially feeling the stuckness and the disapproval energy. It is amazing how one (me) can say "no" to having $10,000 or more. This has to be one of The Enemy's greatest tricks to keep us enslaved and bound. Bringing each feeling to approval, control, safety/security was a real eye-opener. I've got a lot of garbage to haul out and I do mean a lot.

Goldilocks: (quiet admiration) It's so nice to see you grow, Cate.

Cate: Sometimes I think I've really "got it." I see the light and the finish line to freedom. Then I stumble over this tiny pebble in my path which I could have easily stepped over or avoided.

Goldilocks: (fist on chin) Don't beat yourself up, Cate. It will come. And let go of trying to get Larry's approval.

Cate: (sheepishly) You noticed that did you?

Goldilocks: The program's getting weaker, but it's still in place; rather deeply entrenched I might add.

Cate: I was hoping it was gone.

Goldilocks: (encouragingly) He's down, but He isn't out. Watch yourself. (pause) By the way, great job on cleaning up the past. But don't stop now. You're on a roll.

Cate: (playfully) Is that an order?

Goldilocks: You bet it is. I have to keep in practice. Those eagles are getting rusty.

Cate: You know I love taking orders from you. Maybe the next time we talk I'll be $10,000 richer. You just never know. Cate, out.

Goldilocks: (softly, under breath) No, Cate, you do know and soon you will know that you know.

(Comment: for more information on The Abundance Course/Release Technique go to www.releasetechnique.com and to test drive the method go to www.releasetechnique.com/info )