Day 2/The Rendezvous

Cate: Cate calling Goldilocks, come in please, over (silence) Cate calling Goldilocks, do you read me, over? (pause) Goldilocks, this is Cate, can you hear me? Are you within receiving range? Pick up, please, over

Goldilocks: Goldilocks, here, go ahead, Cate.

Cate: (concern in voice) Are you okay?

Goldilocks: Yeah, I'm fine. I was just admiring the full moon out there.

Cate: It's somewhat cloudy here but it was breaking through the clouds briefly on our walk early this morning. It is beautiful in the Fall don't you think? Well, almost Fall.

Goldilocks: Can't argue with you there. So, what have you got to report?

Cate: Great rendezvous last night with Larry and the rest of the releasing graduates. I really learned a lot.

Goldilocks: For instance?

Cate: I need to say "I Love You" silently to myself, to everyone and everything. I just keep forgetting.

Goldilocks: The Enemy doesn't want you to remember. Love, Cate is your strongest weapon against Him. He's totally immobilized when your loving. Lester said it best, "Love is the Answer" to any problem you encounter in this world.

Cate: I don't know why I can't remember that. It sounds so easy. And yet my mind slips into automatic so easily. I wish I could've remembered that on Sunday. Larry said I get too excited and that's when the ego...all right lets pull the wraps off and call The Enemy by the name everyone knows, the Devil, comes in and zaps you hard. Larry understands that, thank God, and I am so grateful for him and his support group. Without it, I'd be wallowing in misery again.

Goldilocks: I'm glad you recognize that.

Cate: I didn't until Larry pointed it out to me. He's not intimidating me like he has in the past. I really appreciate his advice. I'm not going to let a stupid approval program stop me from my journey to freedom. I don't care if he offends me with his blunt New York personality, I'm bigger than this blasted ego/Devil. And I'm going all the way, come hell and high water.

Goldilocks: (smiling gently) Good for you.

Cate: I still wish I could get rid of these blasted hives, particularly the ones that make my lips swell like someone socked me in the mouth. I can handle the itching for the most part but when there right in your face, it's hard to ignore them.

Goldilocks: Are you loving them or trying to figure out how to get rid of them?

Cate: Probably a little of both but mainly wanting them to go away and never come back.

Goldilocks: (licking index finger and holding it up) Score one for The Enemy.

Cate: (sullenly) All right, you try to be happy with huge swellings on the bottoms of your feet and bumps covering more than half your body.

Goldilocks: Would you rather resist or let go? It's your choice you know. You also don't sound very happy. I'd say the ball is in The Enemy's court and He's got you dancing like a puppet on a string.

Cate: Funny how you seem to hit the target every time. But I know how perceptive you were and are. But you're right. This morning I was into the vicious cycle of "trying to figure it out" and then beating myself and my body up. Larry said the ego/Devil is scared because I was so high a week ago, and He's doing everything he can to distract me by getting me to identify with my body again. To tell you the truth, He's doing a darn good job. To change the subject, the news on the money front is dismal, but I'm not listening. In fact I'm not nearly as bothered/fearful about my money situation as I was a couple of months ago. In fact Larry gave me the simple formula to success this morning on his CD set called "How to Remain Happy and Positive at All Times".

Goldilocks: (thoughtfully) Hmmm, interesting, what did he say?

Cate: pretty much the same thing that James, my releasing partner said. "If you're positive, you'll have a positive cash flow. If you're negative, you'll have a negative cash flow. It's simple." I need to hang onto those words for dear life and burn them into my brain.

Goldilocks: hmmm, not bad advice. Anything else?

Cate: That pretty much covers it for today.

Goldilocks: Keep up the good work, but be careful, Cate. He's been wounded but He's not down, and he's angrier than a mad dog and more dangerous than a loaded pistol with a hairpin trigger. Watch your thoughts. And I do mean watch them.

Cate: I'll try, Goldilocks. Thanks for listening. Talk to you soon, Cate out.