The Lost Is Finally Found

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate, come in, please, over. (growing concern) Goldilocks calling Cate, are you out there, Cate?
Cate: Cate, here, Goldilocks. It has taken me forever to find you. Are you all right.
Goldilocks: I'm fine, Cate. What about you? Where have you been?
Cate: Trying to figure out how to use this darn technology. Security is one thing, but this is ridiculous. Without the proper security codes and passwords, you can't transmit a single dot, dash, bit or byte let alone share any meaningful experiences.
Goldilocks: I'm well aware of that. The security is for your own protection. So, what happened?
Cate: (sigh) I had a temporary brain drain and forgot the passwords. I was beginning to think we were going to have to start over from day one. Which isn't that horrible like it used to be.
Goldilocks: I've noticed a great improvement in you even from last week. Speaking of that, what do you have to report?
Cate: Ups and downs or more accurately, two steps forward, one step back.
Goldilocks: Go on, Cate, I'm listening.
Cate: Sunday was the "up". George went to visit his mother and I finally had the day I've been wanting since the Asilomar restreat: time to release, release and release some more. I was hoping to recapture that wonderful high that I experienced for seven days or more.
Goldilocks: (intrigued) And did you?
Cate: Almost but not quite. I really wanted to drop it all...
Goldilocks: (interjecting) But it didn't happen
Cate: (deep sigh) I won't even ask you how you knew that. No, it didn't happen and yes, I was frustrated. I spent a short time beating myself up; this time I was using a wet noodle instead of a bull whip. I'm getting better at discriminating as I progress which gives me encouragement.
Goldilocks: So, what happened yesterday?
Cate: (suddenly stops) You know don't you? You know everything that happened.
Goldilocks: (evasively) Maybe, let's say I do, does that make a difference?
Cate: (slowly) No, I guess not. I really wanted to talk to you yesterday because it was an Ego day with a capital "E". I needed your support.
Goldilocks: But you made out okay or you wouldn't be talking to me, right?
Cate: Yeah, right, but it could've been a disaster...
Goldilocks: (interrupting) But it wasn't. Now, do you want to dwell on the negative or accentuate the positive?
Cate: All right, you win. (pause) At least The Enemy won't win. He can starve as far as I'm concerned.
Goldilocks: (brightly) That's the spirit. You were saying?
Cate: I suppose it began when I got out of bed yesterday. I didn't sleep well and I didn't make a strong enough intention to turn it around. I was out of sinc and running late and everything started to fall apart.
Goldilocks: You were setting yourself up weren't you?
Cate: (thougthfully) Looking back, I can see that now. The Enemy had me by the throat and wouldn't let go. But let me continue. Two things happened that put me into a spin and then it was downhill all the way. The first was transmission problems. I had exceeded my storage size limit and I couldn't send anything. Talk about feeling frustrated. And then I lost this blog because I couldn't remember the sign in codes. Also, I like to prepare my day by releasing first. I reminded myself I had a lot of dispproval engergy to let go of and I needed to concentrate on that specifically. That went out the window when the calls started coming. And I do mean coming, one right after the other, I didn't even have time to think.
Goldilocks: You were operating on automatic. That's dangerous, Cate
Cate: Tell me about it. The old programs were dominant and wouldn't stop. It felt like I had never even heard of Releasing much less benefited from it. I was completely out of control and I detested the feeling.
Goldilocks: hmm, do you see a lesson somewhere?
Cate: Oh, yeah, big time. After looking back on it yesterday evening a light bulb went on in my brain. Every time I feel out of control, I beat myself up. And I mean, I really beat myself up to a point that I am fresh meat.
Goldilocks: (trying to suppress a grin) Interesting insight.
Cate: Hopefully, I'll be more vigilant the next time. (pause) Even better, there won't be a next time.
Goldilocks: We can but hope. Anything else?
Cate: Sure, I could ramble all day, but I don't want to bore our readers.
Goldilocks: Good point. By the way, the last time we corresponded you were going to share some of your frustrations, the ones that have been bothering you for some time now, remember?
Cate: I remember. Next time then? I promise.
Goldilocks: Sure, Goldilocks out.
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