Wednesday/ I'm Back

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate, come in please, over



Cate: Cate here, Goldilocks, great hearing from you again. I was beginning to get worried.



Goldilocks: Sounds like The Enemy is up to his old tricks again by that comment.



Cate: Well...I didn't mean it like that. I do care about you, you know.



Goldilocks: (with mild seriousness) You really shoudn't, you know.



Cate: (mildly outraged) What do you mean I shouldn't?



Goldilocks: Just what I said.



Cate: (still not understanding) Don't you want me to care about you?



Goldilocks: Not necessarily, but there is someone who would love for you to care about me because it makes me special and unequal to you. Do you, huh, understand what I'm trying to get across?



Cate: Oh, the ego/Devil wants to separate us by making one better than the other. Is that it?

Goldilocks: (beaming) Exactly! I knew you'd understand.

Cate: (face clouding) But it's hard not to care about someone. I mean, it's human nature.

Goldilocks: (thoughtfully) Yes, I know. One of those subtle digs by The Enemy. But enough about me. What about you? Anything to report?

Cate: Yes, I have learned the hard way to save these entries as I write them or they can easily disappear into cyber space, never to be seen or heard of again, and then you beat yourself up for being so stupid and wasting an entire morning grinding out all that lovely creative material.

Goldilocks: I take it, that is what happened?

Cate: (hiding a smirk) Well, almost. I was trying to add a banner to the last post without success and the whole thing shut down. My stomach did a quick "kerplunk" and I'm sure my face turned a couple of shades paler, but once I got past the "oh my, God" feeling, I took back control and took full responsibility for my actions. I was so proud of myself...well, it was a victory for freedom.

Goldilocks: (smiling) Well, done, Cate, you are really getting a handle on this thing.

Cate: (meeting his smile) Actually, this gain turned out better than I thought. After I had let it go as a total loss (but a lesson well learned) I discovered quite by accident that each post goes into a draft phase and I think I can still post it, if I really want to. But I'm not sure I do.

Goldilocks: Why not?

Cate: Well, I was sharing some personal things that I was beginning to have second thoughts about. I was almost glad that I couldn't post it.

Goldilocks: And what are your feelings now?

Cate: Well, I accepted this mission with the understanding that I would be ready for the "slings and arrows of outrageous" comments. So, I guess I should let the chips, (or is that shit?) fall where they may.

Goldilocks: (chuckling with amusement) Good for you, Cate. You're starting to sound a lot like me.

Cate: (mimmicking his tone) And coming from you that's high praise, right?

Goldilocks: (showing some surprise) You really have followed my exploits haven't you?

Cate: (wide grin) I do my best. (pause) Just one other comment, I was talking to James last night. One of my goals is to win the lottery jackpot this month. I'm using "The Butt System" letting go of all my "I can'ts. He was trying to AGFLAP me. (Comment: AGFLAP stands for Apathy, Grief, Fear, Lust, Anger and Pride; the emotions/feelings that block us from experiencing our true nature, happiness) But I was in such a high energy level, that his barbs just glanced off and didn't even phase me. I was elated.

Goldilocks: Like I said before, you're coming along nicely.

Cate: Yup, and I'm even starting to enjoy this prison/call center just a little bit. I'm trying to let go of disapproving of my situation, trying my darndest to let go of wanting to change it, while at the same time spreading a little love and approval around.

Goldilocks: (smiling) Sounds like a plan to me. Oh, and umm, I can tell you've been staying more positive of late.

Cate: (nonplussed) And just how do you know that?

Goldilocks: Let's just say that's for me to know for you to find out.

Cate: Ooh, Goldilocks, for as much as I admire you, you can be a pain in you know where.

Goldilocks: Comes with the territory. I'm happy for your progress, Cate. Tomorrow I'd like to hear about your frustrations, Goldilocks out.

Cate: (caught by surprise) Goldilocks, come back here. Goldilocks... (silence) (fuming) Ooh!

(Comment: go to www.releasetechnique.com to learn more about how Cate and Goldilocks are staying positive)