Making contact

Goldilocks: (aside) (Well, here I am deep in enemy territory with my backside exposed to the world. What will happen I wonder? I suppose it shouldn't matter because I'm commited to our cause, which is Freedom with a capital "F". First things first, I need to make contact with Cate. So here goes.)

Goldilocks: Goldilocks calling Cate, come in please, over. (silence) Goldilocks calling Cate, do you read me? Over

Cate: (extreme static) Cate, here, Goldilocks, can you hear me? Over

Goldilocks: I'm getting a lot of static but I guess we'll have to make do.

Cate: (eagerly) Are you really THE Goldilocks that I've heard so much about?

Goldilocks: (nonchallantly) I dunno, that all depends on what you've heard.

Cate: (exhuberantly) Oh, everything! I've followed all your missions. You were my idol when I was growing up. I even named my dog after you, and he's a boy.

Goldilocks: (under breath) Oh, great, this is all I need. Look, Cate, that was year's ago. We need to stay focused. We have an important and dangerous mission ahead of us.

Cate: (more subdued) Sorry to go on like that, but I've always wanted to meet you.

Goldilocks: So you've met me. Well, sort of. Now, are you ready to get down to business?

Cate: Sure, Goldilocks, I can get a little over enthusiastic at times.

Goldilocks: (soft mutter) So I've noticed. So, tell me about your weekend. Any problems, glitches, high points?

Cate: Saturday was great. I worked in the call center. It really is a slave environment. But I had a good attitude and the day flew by. I thought we were going to be swamped, which would have sabotaged the preparation plans to make contact with you, but actually it turned out to be a slow day, thankfully, and everything went off without a hitch. I did have a great gain as we call it. One of my colleagues, who I've been sharing The Release Technique with, actually purchased the first course, The Abundance Course. I am so excited!

Goldilocks: Great, Cate, chalk one up for our side, Freedom.

Cate: Sunday could have been a downer as I went to visit my parents. But I did a major release before going and was releasing in the car going down. I did run into a block of resistance despite trying to stay positive.

Goldilocks: Oops, tell me about it.

Cate: Well, my 89-year-old mother is still recovering from a serious heart attack in early June and is feeling tired and out of breath again. I wanted to try the Release Technique on her like before (she made a miraculous recovery in two days) but I didn't and I was frustrated.

Goldilocks: Are you okay with that?

Cate: I wasn't yesterday and I could tell I was beating myself up again. I thought I had risen above that after the workshop at Asilomar in California, but obviously not. (sigh)

Goldilocks: Don't sell yourself short, Cate. The Enemy will use anything to bring you down. And I do mean "anything." You're doing an excellent job. You're closer to Freedom than you think. That's why I'm here, remember?

Cate: And you don't know how much I appreciate that. I just wish I could be more vigilant. I don't catch it soon enough. I think I'm being positive, but then I have that "uh" feeling in my stomach that I'm not feeling that happy and I don't know what happened. Usually, I've been beating myself up and disapproving of myself for hours even days before someone, ususally another releaser, makes me aware what I'm doing. And then I want to beat myself up even more for not catching it sooner.

Goldilocks: Uh oh, He's got you. It's one of His most effective method's of attack. Don't fall for it, Cate.

Cate: But He's so subtle. I think I'm happy, when I'm really beating myself up. It's a vicious circle.

Goldilocks: Bingo! You've hit the nail on the head. And this time, it's your head. And speaking of "vicious" that word doesn't even come close to describing His method of attack. Remember, He feeds off your negativity. He'll do anything to make your life miserable and unhappy.

Cate: My biggest challenge is to pull myself out of my doldrums. I try to think of a happy moment but I can't, no matter how hard I try. I really want to be happy, Goldilocks but sometimes I struggle so hard and I feel stuck.

Goldilocks: And that's exactly what He wants. Your struggles are music to His ears. You're also "wanting" to be happy, and you know what that means don't you?

Cate: (sigh) As long as I'm wanting it I can't have it because "want" means "lack."

Goldilocks: (thoughtfully) You got it.

Cate: I wish I did.

Goldilocks: Don't get discouraged. It's a jungle of negativity out there.

Cate: I just wish my family was more positive. I really don't like being around negative people. I don't look forward to visiting them. They pull me down every time.

Goldilocks: That's a real negative pocket I know. But you can't make it positive by avoiding it. Your parents are going through some serious health issues. You have an opportunity to turn it around.

Cate: I know, but some times I just don't want to. I look at the way they think and live, and I ask myself "why bother?" They aren't going to listen to me and they aren't going to change.

Goldilocks: The Enemy really has you in his noose with that statement.

Cate: I know but I just don't think I have the ammunition to deal with it right now. I need another releaser with me when I face them and my mother-in-law. I just don't like to be around elderly people who need assistance; especially negative elderly people.

Goldilocks: And why, do you suppose, you feel that way?

Cate: Probably because I don't want to get old, ugly and infirmed.

Goldilocks: Uh huh, would you say that has to do with the fear of dying?

Cate: I'm sure it does. They make me feel so helpless and inadequate. I don't like thinking about taking people to the bathroom and cleaning up after them. I've never changed a diaper in my life and the smell of vomit makes me gag. Even my husband cleans up after our dog. It was probably why I never became a mother.

Goldilocks: Do I detect some strong resistance here and possibly guilt?

Cate: I'm sure you do. Poor George had to go attend to his mother as soon as we got home after driving through strong winds gusting over 30 and 40mph. I offered to go with him, but thankfully, he wanted me to stay home with Goldilocks...uh, that's our 5-year-old Soft-coated Wheaten Terrier. I'm sure I don't have to tell you I was relieved and maybe just a little guilty.

Goldilocks: Hmmm, do tell.

Cate: I did use much of the time to release and listen to Larry's new CD's. I managed to get pretty high right before going to bed.

Goldilocks: But you did "escape" for an hour of so didn't you?

Cate: Funny you should mention that. All right, I did pop in an episode of "Hogan's Heroes" to get my fix for the week. By the way they mentioned your code name in it.

Goldilocks: (darkly) Sh! not so loud. Do you want to blow our cover so early in the ballgame?

Cate: Sorry, I wasn't thinking. On second, thought, how I wish.

Goldilocks: Yes, I know. Don't force it. It'll come, sooner than you know. Look, we need to cut this short. I knew the initial contact would go longer than most, but I do know today's readers have a short attention span.

Cate: That's okay, Goldilocks. I have an important rendezvous with Larry and the team tonight. Hopefully, when I talk to you again, I'll be flying.

Goldilocks: just be sure to watch out for the trees and the flak, Goldilocks out.